Dreams and Journeys....

Went to the bed dizzy with excitement.Excitement of the memoirs of the journey i had completed. Journey of a lifetime, journey starting from the foothills of the niligiris and ending at the highest peak "Dodabetta Peak". The view from the dodabetta peak was like watching the clouds talking to the mountain peaks and deciding on the ethereal look that will be presented to the viewers.

And I dreamt the whole journey once again.This was the best way i could had celebrated my new year, watching the star studded nights and the taking in the fragnances of the eucalyptos.When we took that first wheel into the territory with tea gardens the long eucalyptos trees swayed along with the wind which was saying welcome , reminding me of the fairy tales with talking trees.It was as if the trees were wishpering something into my ears.

The train journey to Conoor or the boating experience in the Ooty lake, or watching the sunset at the rose garden, nothing can beat the thougts and the feeling that arose at that moment.

Best part of the journey was the stop at the piakara falls, gaint waterfall downstream and a pleasant flow if crystal clear water upstream with the rocks and the trees placed just so very perfectly. The camping at the river side and the campfire till the last hour.

And this dream will continue for i don't know how many more days.The lush green tea gardens and the crystal clear atmosphere.As my dream came to a end, here i am planning for the next trip to the heaven to celebrate this new year, because somebody has said it so correctly " Life is an endless journey"

Demented......

What does demented mean? The first question that comes to one's mind.Don't you think that it means something which is not good.Or probably something which takes away all the cheer we have...yes this word has been picked up by me from "harry potter".....so what does it mean? Demented as the word suggests means being a victims of dementors...What are dementors? They are beings who take away all the good memory you have and fill you with sadness.Now why do i mention them here is because I wanted an analogy between the terror attacks and something which is as bad as that.So I found this comparison the apt one to have.
Dementors are beings which suck all the happy memories a person has and a person only remembers the sorrows and the miseries of life.
Thats what happens when the terrorists attack, they shatter all the happiness we have , they leave us with a sense of insecurity and fear of the unknown.When now i start from my house , i never know whether i will come back alive or never return,even my parents tell me not to venture out.
Why am i leaving in such a fear, this is my country and i leave as if i am a refugee here.Is this the price we pay for choosing our leaders.Whats the solution for all this. Its high time we sit and think about the options we have.This is my country and I have all the rights to own it.No outsider will make me live under fear in my own "WATAN".
Here's some expression which i wanted to share:

"Khuli Ankhon se bhi ,dekhte hain khwab ,
Ke nayee subah jaroor ayegi
har sans se nikalti hey yahin dua
ke aman aur shanti jaroor chayegi"

Confused

What am i doing here today...actually lost in my thoughts and ideas.....what do i want from my life....."nothing" says a voice from within and the head growls "shut up!!!".."you want to achieve and if failed than perish" What do i listen to? Join the rat race of which leads to nothing? Or leave everything and run away from the shadows of the past, "running wayward isn't the solution", says a voice again.

There is a voice screaming to come out and engulf my whole existence, too many failures ...failures are ladders to success but am i even trying that?

Questions haunting me and try to find answers ...where will i end my journey at..end up being some looser who took birth and died and nobody knew or die a death to be remembered till a century......ok not a century but atleast some years.....

Lost Soul................

.....Romanticism.....

Looking at the stars,here is what I think.......
Oh dark night what message do you bring ,
Why have you sent your messangers to me.
Behold oh gracious lady, look at the stars
And say what your heart wants,
What you want to share with your beloved.
I have been looking at the road
Waiting to hear the sound of the hoofs.
Every morning ,my eyes on the lonely roads,
Waiting that you will come riding the white horse
Taking me off my feet.
Make me a cindrella.
With these thoughts the sun sets beyond the horizon,
here comes the stars again send by the dark night to give you this message.
Oh beloved when you open your eyes and look at the dark night it will have a message for you.

Rendezvous with the clouds

This one should have come 3 years back...gosh...long...miss my buddies....this one for themAfter a lot of planning, discussing, and fighting over the choice of location for a weekend trip, we group of friends) finally decided to visit Raigarh...

The next day, in spite of heavy monsoons and some deadly premonitions to avoid visiting Raigarh during this season, we were on our way by 7:30 am. The view during our drive was truly mind blowing. Clouds floated on top

 of mountains and the temperature gradually fell as we moved towards a higher altitude. There were mini waterfalls on the sides of the road along with massive trees that had fallen by due to the windy conditions.

We reached the district of Raigarh at around 12.30 pm. It was pouring heavily and cold. The raging monsoon could do little to dampen our spirits, and we moved forward towards our destination. As the journey prevailed we came across one of the most difficult roads that we could have expected. The road was marred by fallen rocks and one side being the mulshi dam reservoir.

We reached the foothills of the Raigarh fort at around 3:00, and it was all deserted. The thought that came to our mind was that probably the rope way will be not running and our whole journey was just futile. To our relief and gods grace the ropeway was working and we took two of them and started our journey .About some meters above the ground the only thing that was visible was clouds and us. Yes the trolley was lost between the clouds and we were not aware of the destination.

Finally the trolley struck something hard and came to a halt.It was raining cats and dogs; we entered the gate of the fort. We took the guide which was provided for us by the authorities and started the journey towards history. Amidst dense clouds and heavy downpour we saw the parts of the fort which made us look more closely into the past that was so culturally rich and prosperous. We stood at the place where coronation of Shivaji happened and felt we were so small before the great personalities, who once ruled this country. Getting drenched from head to toe while standing on the premises we had a refreshing cup of tea. Than we visited the Grave of the Great Shivaji and his dog as well. Its said that dog jumped into the pyre of shivaji. So faithful was the animal towards his master

There was a nip in the air when we started at 5:00 pm. We were all shivering, our teeth chattering in different tunes. Around 7:00 pm the visibility was almost reduced to zero as we were surrounded by clouds on all sides. One point the vehicle came to a sudden halt and we saw that we were just an inch away from certain death, as the vehicle was just beside the edge of the road and about to fall. Thanks to our experienced driver, we reached Pune safely, absorbing the beauty of nature as the stars welcomed us back to civilization. The memorable trip had finally come to an end. But the enchanting memory still remains

Exploring Thoughts .....

This is the list of the songs i love.....1. meraa kuchh saamaan tumhaare paas padaa hain 2. tum ko dekhaa, to ye khayaal aayaa 3. hothhon se chhu lo tum meraa geet amar kar do.....sometimes i think that why i like this songs.These songs touch me to the extent that i can spent the day listening to these three only.

Love makes you think all these.....life makes you realize this...dono..but would really want to explore ...so here goes what is the outcome of exploring though my thoughts again....Life is important for me coz it leads to love.Love is imnportant coz its the source of very existence of everyone.Now lets go one by one on the songs ...

1. Merra kuch Saamaan tumhaare pass --- My favourite part of the song is "ek so solaah channd ki raatein,ek tumhare" this song is really near to me ,bringing memories so close to heart.Love hurts everytime i think about that.It hurts evrytime i think about the time spent together..good memories.Learnt a lot from past experiences and still not able to implement them.I still feel that i am lost in this ground.Torn between the hypothetical love and the harsh realities of the LOVE.Love hurts either you fall or drown....still i would love to explore the feeling once more.

2. tum ko dekhaa, to ye khayaal aayaa -- kahin aahat si huyi tere aane ki,aur dil ne maan liya ki bahar aa gayi....jab der talak aaya na tu ,to humne jaan liya ki patjadh hai........tum aaye aur chale gaye..dikhayi diye aur ojhal ho gaye ;pal bhar ke liye laga meri kismat par muskura doon par phir dil hi ghayal ho gaya.....what i am wrting ....don't know....you know sometimes don't understand these things...feel like i am so ignorant...away from the truth that is life.the harsh realities of it.Want to run away...sometimes feel like standing in the middle of the desert so very craving for company and not being able to get even a dog for the same.Sand ,Sand everywhere ..i stand among the same..looking for a hope that is yet to come .....pondering over the life that was ...trying to remember was it a dream or the truth.Dreams....what are they ...what gonna happen in the future or the remains of the past we had....dreams,no wonder we ponder on them so much.Looking at the time that is ahead,i feel like i need a break....Final point being ythe moment i saw you ...i knew you were for me....but took me ages and ages to say that..and that lead to this or that.Oof so many this and that...i leave me with a question ...do i still love thy.

3. hothhon se chhu lo tum meraa geet amar kar do -- my fav line in this song is "tum haar kai dil apna meri jeet amar kar do"but what is winning,is it loosing honestly and with dignity...who can be termed as victorious..one who is betrayed in love or one who betrays....who is termed as faithful...one who hides for the sake of good or one who tells the truth.Everything is so relative........ so unclear............confuses me .....more on exploring more...will this stop ever...this exploring,,,,,,,,who knows..probably you:)

Guns and Roses

Looking into the your eyes, sometimes i wonder Is my life a thing beautiful enough to ponder.

Looking at the sky makes we wonder, is it a dream or an illusion at the horizon, so many things going on in the life so small of mine.

Nobody ever told me its so difficult, leaving all the memories behind, its like taking a bullet right at the heart.

Though you will never know how it feels , to take the pain, I will be the one suffering in the shadows....................................

Love was like a bed of roses, and then the memories are the guns I keep beside me ....looking over the life I had with you , feel like bullets hitting me at random.

Hence I wrote this one thinking of the roses that was LOVE and the GUNS I carry the caricature of something that is so far away and long gone